Here we are and that’s pretty far.

Today was one of those days where I felt defeated. I let this disease have the best of me and I felt shipwrecked. I balled my eyes out for hours and thought as if there was no resolution. This world can really have a handle on you and leave you emotionally sick. Thinking back on it, I realized I wasted prized time on feeling tightly jailed. I’m honestly no good at pity parties so when something unravels everything seems to fall apart.  Why can I not be rational and Strong? I wish there was a place in my head to go when I erupt. Sort of like a safe house in my head that locks out all fallacious emotions.

I cannot put into words what God did for me today other than saying he found me. It’s supernatural, it’s awe-inspiring, and it’s love.

“ IN ME YOU HAVE EVERYTHING. In me you are complete. Your capacity to experience me is increasing, through My removal of debris and clutter from your heart. As your yearning for me increases, other desires are lessening. Since I am infinite and abundantly accessible to you, desiring Me above all else is the best way to live.

It is Impossible for you to have a need that I cannot meet. After all, I created you and everything that is. The world is still at my beck and call, though it often appears otherwise. Do not be fooled by appearances. Things that are visible are brief and fleeting, while things that are invisible are everlasting.” –Jesus Calling

“ Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. “ – Ephesians 3:20

“ So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. “ – 2 Corinthians 4:18

Catch My Eye.

Sometimes you can’t choose what stays or fades away.

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Trigeminal Neuralgia is a rotten disease to live with. I’ve been having a heck of a time dealing with the pain, so Last Tuesday I had my Fifth Surgery. The pain level was well past a ten and the third Stellate Ganglion Block did not work. Why not have another one right? Yesterday I was … Continue reading →

Chin up and you’ll drown a little slower.

Weddings are so overwhelming.

I’m honestly thinking to myself “How will all of this come together?” Because I have no idea how it will all work out. There are so many things that I need to put together and then not enough ideas to combine for a wedding. It’s really quite confusing! I would just hate doing this for a living.

We had our wedding meeting this morning and everything came together rather nicely. God has really blessed us! I couldn’t be more thankful!

This week will be full of getting addresses, ordering invitations and brainstorming for new ideas. The reception is what I’m worried about. I have almost everything together for the wedding…ALMOST!

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Over-thinking ruins you. Ruins the situation, twists things around, makes you worry and just makes everything much worse than it really is.  Things are much more simple when the beach is involved. Today The Mister and I took a road trip down to Galveston to spend some much needed time with my crazy family.  I … Continue reading →

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Austin was such a blast. The Mister and I left on Thursday. We stayed at one of my good old friends house and both Her and her friends were so good to us. She was a great host and would love to go and visit her more. I got the chance to meet up with … Continue reading →

“Wake up Maggie I think I got something to say to you.”

Trying to get out of bed on all this medication is nearly impossible. I have to get up and moving since we are going to ATX today for some SXSW. I’m not even packed yet! I’m so excited to be going this year and especially excited to stay with some old but good friends.

The Mister (CASTLELIGHTS) is playing at Whiskey & Ink @12am tonight/tomorrow morning and some Houston locals will be down there as well so I’m hoping to catch up with them. If you’re going to be down there look for me.

Last Night was so much fun Aaron and I had a dance party in the living room and then discussed how bad I beat him over Chinese food. I’ve almost made my way through a whole bottle of Sirachi. I love the spice! 

Yesterday I had the chance to sit beside the pool. The sun was so warm but the pool was FREEZING. I just can’t wait for Summer! I love to swim… I’m practically half fish!

It’s supposed to be in the 80’s in Austin the next two days. That means I get to break out the legs! Nothing better than the warmth of the Texas sun, short shorts and live music together.

Now the time has come for me to peel myself off this bed. Have a good day.

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“Being tender and open is beautiful. As a woman, I feel continually shhh’ed. Too sensitive. Too mushy. Too wishy washy. Blah blah. Don’t let someone steal your tenderness. Don’t allow the coldness and fear of others to tarnish your perfectly vulnerable beating heart. Nothing is more powerful than allowing yourself to truly be affected by things. Whether it’s a song, a stranger, a mountain, a rain drop, a tea kettle, an article, a sentence, a footstep, feel it all – look around you. All of this is for you. Take it and have gratitude. Give it and feel love.”

-Zooey Deschanel

Where the Heart is.

I’m missing Houston like crazy right now. I miss having everything so close to each other. I’m missing my Fiancé.